I think the 'I' at the beginning of your name stands for i think you're absolutely fantastic. Yes,siree.

And how does time stand still?

I only cried twice
this year
during
the holidays.
Once
was for a bookshelf
which I improperly put together
and needed to undo
and redo.
The other was for loving you.

I have you, I know, I have you
I just don't know where you went.
You're right here, I know, you're right here,
but I haven't seen you around for years.

You don't know this kind of fear
until it stares you in the face
as you're closing the door on it
mid-sentence
trying not to.
Knowing you shouldn't.

The second time I cried
during
the holidays,
I was afraid I would have to
undo
and redo
you.

Here's to you, F.

for a moment
they looked at
each other as if
each could
satisfy every
craving and
spent the rest
of their lives
trying to
outmaneuver
the facts.

He's killlllllllin' it.
Woohoooooo.